The Move- Part 1

14th June 10:45
LOCATION: My bedroom,White Building,Dubai.

My phone rings.Its the upbeat lady from Accom. We moving your bed tomoro she tells me.
I say,no I'll move it,otherwise you will lose it and I'll get someones elses matress,more than likely some skanky boy who shags everything.
No,she reasures me,you will get your bed.
Ok,I say,then move it!
Shit,1 day to organise my whole move.Get on the phone find moving company,organise for him to come at 11 the next morning.Next mission-get boxes. 45 degrees outside,but we cant wait till evening to start packing,so we brave the heat and walk across the road to the supermarket,on the beg for boxes.Back to White to begin packing. Becs,Sook and I goin to share truck and move all out shit together.
Where did all this stuff come from.Everytiime I tape a box closed I turn around and more stuff has appeared.Is is multiplying behind my back???? Like rabbits?
What did I think I was going to use the 20 small asian soup spoons for? but in they go,to be not used in new apartment. Toiletries I dont remember buying let alone ever using! The shampoo for brunnettes? Im blonde. The vanilla body spray.I HATE vanilla! Do I just not think?????
Well finally all boxes are packed. Told delivery guy we would have about 15 boxes all together. I have 17 on my own! Shit,oh well!
July 15, 11:00
No sign of the moving guy.
Could kick myself for actually expecting him to show up on time.
Call him,but it says number not available!!!!
We could scream!
Have packed all my bedding into box otherwise I would just go back to bed and sob.
11:30
Still no sign of him,have exams tomoro but cant learn now as house is in a state.
Try to call again,he is still busy moving other people. Will be right here!
12:15-still not here!
Want to eat something but have packed all knives and forks.
12:24
Call him again,
"sorry Madam,sorry,coming now"
13:45
Finally arrives!
Doorbell rings,its him with his helper.
A 50 year old Indian man in his robes.Oh geez,now I have to watch as this frail old man moves my boxes while I sit on my arse and look like spoilt rich girl. Fuck it,beyond caring.
17:10
Finally all boxes are loaded,time to move.
Into a cab we pile,we wait for the movers but they are no where to be seen. Finally he appears and tell us to go on ahead,he's going to the mosque to pray.Well,how can I yell at you now,if you praying.
So off we head to our new home.
18:00
No sign of movers. Nothing in new apartment.just dining suite.
Sookies bed is there,mine is no where to be seen. Oh bed where art thou???
18:35
Movers arrive and unload all boxes.
We start unpacking.
20:30
No bed!!!!
What the hell,what am I supposed to do now????
I have to get up at 05:30 to go to college,haven't started learning my equipment locations yet and have no where to sleep.
21:00
Back into cab and back to old apartment.
There is my bed,in my room,just waiting there all alone! Damn this stupid company!
Realise all bedding in in box at new apartment.
So sleep on bare matress with a single fitted sheet to cover me.This is the most depressing situation I've ever been in.
I hate bare matresses,like a phobia!
NOW WHAT?????

Movers arrive and unload

An ode to all ex'es

Somewhere along the way of getting over you,I forgot to get over you!
How weird, not to mention such a major oversight.I guess I was too busy thinking about the future(and sometimes the past) and it just slipped my mind.
I mean of course break-ups are difficult and they take time. I believe as we get older we should be mature and responsible about them,you know,take some time to grieve and deal with it all. Maybe have a period of reflection and accept the part we played in it. Not just turn around and dive into a new relationship with the next person we meet. Oh wait,thats what you did. Oh well,Im sure you had a plan,Im sure that its worked out for you in the long run. No? Shame.

I,however just think its better to sort through the issues on your own before you arrive at your next relationship with a huge carrier van of baggage.
Also wouldnt it be nice to start again with someone new and not repeat the same mistakes?
No? You dont think so? Well obviously not,the way you carrying on.
Oh and sometimes the mind plays such awful tricks,trying to convince me that you were the best thing to ever happen to me,maybe even trying to block out some of the awful things you did or said, the mind sure is sneaky. Sometimes it even makes me think of the future with you in it. Silly,trying to convince me that you were The One.
And all this time I've been to busy to take my mind asaide and have a little chat with her and tell her to shut-up!!!!
The bitch has had free reign over me, blending together fact and fiction and creating a relationship in my head that was so not the one we had in reality.
Lucky you though,you obviously had no issues with your conscience or mind( assuming you have either of them) you were able to just turn around and carry on.
Even when I offered the olive branch of friendship you took it in two minds. I tried to build the bridge that you actually should have been building,but no still not going to work. Its so funny the way you can just switch on and off. I mean it must come in real handy for some things. I wonder what goes on in your head, do you ever worry about yourself? Oh I am making myself laugh now,of course you dont.

How stupid of me not to have seen it in the begining anyway.I mean lets be honest you were dating me before you even broke up with your long term girlfriend. Ben Harper warned me that the end is always in the begining. If only I wasnt so blinded by love,never mind I have taken my blindfold off now. I have taken all this time to work through everything,I wonder if you ever stop to think how your actions affected me? No I guess not,that would mean you having to put someone before yourself. So, all this time I thought I was still getting over you that I missed the day that it actually happened. Hearing these stories about you,I cant believe its the same person. Well I guess you not. I think I must have created a better version of you in my head,thats the only explanation I can think of. The alternative being that I knew you were like this all along and stayed with you anyway.Its just to sad.
Not that you'll lose any sleep over it mind you. If anything you'll have your head stuck so far into the sand and playing your favourite game of avoidence that you'll carry on having a huge party for years to come never really thinking about those along the way(least of all yourself)
Well, at least I FINALLY get it! I finally understand that Im better than that! How long it took to me to realise,silly silly me! Oh I really must start to pay more attention to myself,who knows what else I'll miss!!!!!

Time.............................to do stuff!

Why does time fly by sometimes and other times drag on forver????
Im going to Thailand in 24 days! 24!!! And I cant wait,I wish it was tomorrow!
I still have to move apartments,go to India,London,Johannesburg and Hamburg aswell as do my recurrent safety exams! So much to do and all I want to do is pack my bag and head to the beach!
Not to mention the diet Im meant to be on.Trying to slim down to fit into my bikini so that Im not the fat white friend in all our photies! So far diet not going so well,Had all you could eat and drink brunch yesterday-obviously drank more than I ate and had a hangover by dinner last night!
Didnt go to gym today as I had planned,instead I decided to start packing for my move,but I have landed up watching PS. I love you instead and the boxes remain empty.
I should also start learning for my exams but have not got to that either today.
Suddenly there doesnt seem to be enough time!
Could I just go to sleep and wake up on the 1st of July in my new apartment with my exams done and my bag packed ready for Thailand!
Oh pleeeeeease!!!!!!!